Stuck At A Dead End

I haven’t post anything for a few months and no there isn’t a good reason. Simply because I have started to become lazy. Lazy with home life, lazy with work life, lazy with church life and unfotunatly lazy with my faith. I haven’t lost faith, but I’m becoming lazy with it. I don’t pray as often as I did (though it was little to start with), my love for worship leading has slowly burnt out, my love for church has started to disappear. 

This is what I call stuck at a dead end. Where you don’t know what you want to do in life. Yes I know I’m young, I’m only 19 and I have my whole life ahead of me? Some parts I already have planned out, but others I have no clue what I wanna do.

I’ve been asking God for a miracle. I’ve been asking that one of the struggles in my life will disappear. He listened. One of the struggles in my life disappeared. I was so shocked, so amazed! God was listening to me.

I thought of this verse amongst my amazement…

I raise my eyes toward the mountains. Where will my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth. God won’t let your foot slip. Your protector won’t fall asleep on the job. No! Israel’s protector never sleeps or rests! The Lord is your protector; the Lord is your shade right beside you. The sun won’t strike you during the day; neither will the moon at night. The Lord will protect you from all evil; God will protect your very life. The Lord will protect you on your journeys— whether going or coming— from now until forever from now. (‭Psalms‬ ‭121‬:‭1-8‬ CEB)

God is good all the time, and all the time God is good.

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My Story: Josh’s Life…

Hey people of Christian Corner! So…Chloe asked me to share ‘my story’ with you!

You might notice my writing style is quite different from Chloe’s but I hope that’s not too much of a shock for you.

I’m Joshua Oliver Matthew Price, aged 17 (although I frequently feel like that’s untrue as I have enough wrinkles and grumpiness for being 47!) and live near Brighton, Sussex.

The story I’m going to share today is very personal and not something I often tell anyone…let alone make public to the world! But…hey, I hope it help you in some way!

I was born in Canterbury, Kent to my parents and lived in Herne Bay, Kent! My mother was, and still is a teacher and was still at uni when she had me. Two years later came along my sister…Alanna Hetty Jade Price (or Hill, at the time! More on that later).

To my understanding my parents, but mainly my mum, went to a Church Of England Church. I, of course, don’t remember anything from that age. Now, somewhere around this point my father left. As a result my mother struggled financially, having two young children was a challenge I’m sure!

My Mum remarried when I was 8. We moved from Herne Bay to Sussex where I now live as my step-dad couldn’t find a job near by.

Until that point in the story I can’t actually remember essentially anything. I’ve totally blocked it out as it was traumatic and I simply don’t have access to those memories any more. Hence my lack of detail!

I attended the school where my mum worked as a teacher and I cried 3 weeks straight as I had no friends.

I then went to secondary school and got into my swing a little. Putting my past behind me…and accepting my step-dad like my real father.

It was after moving that I started attending The Kings Church Mid-Sussex. That church has been SO good to me over the years and it’s a pleasure to still be there and be helping in every way I can. At this point in my life I still was not thinking for myself and really having any interest in God or religion.

It was in year 8 or 9 that I was told my father had killed himself. This was something I reflect on in a strange way although I am unhappy about that as I would have liked to meet him…it didn’t really affect me as I had never had a relationship with him. 1 thing I did know was that I hated him.

I passed over that quickly and started to get into my science…starting my blog in 2012 and podcasting along side that. I found a real interest in science and god and the theory and creationism and the big bang and learnt lots…caused lots of havoc and made a semi-successful podcast which was in the iTunes top 10 Science and nature podcasts for a week or so.

At that point I knew I was Christian and it was my personality and I understood the meaning and had concluded that God was the logical answer.

As I’ve changed over the past year and had a crazy year at that: dropping out of college, doing various jobs, interacting with lots of people, I’ve matured lots and reflect positively on my experience.

Just now am I having a real relationship with God and Jesus as I feel like I struggled to accept him as a father because that was a figure whom I could not relate to.

So there I am! That’s me! I’ve always been a ‘Christian’ but only in recent years have been able to accept what that really means for my life.

If you want more of me…usually less deep and more funny…then please check my daily blogging out: http://www.joshua-price.com and tweet me: @joshuaprice01

As I say to my followers: I love you and I’ll see you tomorrow!

If you have any questions or what support or guidance on whatever on anything I’ve mentioned please get in touch!

My Story…

I think the best way to kick off the series of blogs is by sharing my story with you so you know a little bit more about me.

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This is me…

My Full Name is Chloe Katherine Bennett, I am 18 years old, my birthday is 26th August and I live in Kent, England.

I am a fully Qualified Level 3 Child Care Practitioner and work in a Day Nursery as a Pre-school Key Worker.

I live with my Mum, Dad, Older Brother and Younger Sister. Oh and we have a rabbit called Jenson Bunny…guess who we named him after?!

I’ve grown up in a Christian family. My Grandad was Pastor of New Life Community Church so I pretty much grew up at that church.

I don’t remember much about when I was younger at church. All I remember was messing around during Sunday School and singing some really old kid songs which I still remember to this day!

Growing up in a Christian family meant I’ve always had the knowledge of God but I never knew him personally.

When I was 13 years old, I went to my first concert which was the first EVER Big Church Day Out in 2009 and it was there that I developed a passion for all things music and worship but I still didn’t have a great relationship with God.

A few months later, I went to the last ever Delirious? concert in November 2009. My love for worship developed even more but I still didn’t know God all that well.

In 2010, some things happened in my family and my church which kinda had a bad affect on people. I’m not gonna go into detail because what happened is personal but all I’m gonna say is that it made me really ill. I lost a lot of weight, I wasn’t eating a lot. I don’t wanna say I had an eating disorder, because I didn’t go to the doctors to get a diagnoses, but that’s the only way I can describe it…I had an eating disorder. Long story short, 2010 was a horrible year for me.

It wasn’t until 2011, when I found out people were realising how much weight I had lost and were constantly asking if I was ok, that I started to get my life together again. I ate more, I put on weight very quickly, I started to feel better about myself! Which was good because I had all my GCSE exams that year.

I started volunteering at a children’s after school club called Kingsquad, we would teach children about stories in the bible etc. Which has then lead me on to being a leader at a Christian Children’s Camp called Chequer Tree Camp and this year is the 3rd year I have taken part.

Over the last 3 years, I have felt my love for God and my relationship with him open so much! From doing Chequer Tree Camp, as well as going to event such as Big Church Day Out and Worship Central Conference, I have realised the way I talk to God and communicate with him is by praise and worship, as well as sharing his word to children who doesn’t God at all. Christian’s may say that pray is the main form of communicate, and they are right to some people. But to me, lifting my hands, shouting his name through worship is my main form of communicate and I can clearly hear Him.

Over the past year, I have been reading my bible a lot more and here are a few verse I really find encouraging:

‘I have been crucified with Christ; it is no loner I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.’ Galatians 2v20

‘Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the Lord will give you…Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged…’ 2 Chronicles 20v17.

Now, in 2014, I am a worship leader at a my new church, I am a blogger, I am part of an amazing Youth Group called MedwayYouth and I am loving the life Christ has given me and I shall live in his example.

If you would like to share your story with me, then please don’t hesitate to email me or to leave me a message 🙂